APRIL 2024

april was kind of a weird month.

• watched the walking dead for the first time from season one halfway to the second part of season eight in a very unique experience.
• binged through it very quickly until i got halfway through season 8, where i had to stop due to Grief
• consuming tv shows, movies, books and etc in this obssessive manner is something i did often when i was younger, and i rarely do nowadays. it's an absurd experience, as if i were on drugs the whole time i'm in this State. afterwards i experience a sort of post-nut clarity
• i have all of my thoughts about everything that happens in the show registered because i kept texting moria, a friend of mine, with all of my reactions. i thought about eventually setting up a post compiling all of it but i'll only get to it when i finish the whole show
• it was great to enter this trance-like state but it simply set the whole rest of my life off balance. all the habits i made an effort to create were violently demolished. i am now gathering the broken pieces
• applied to a job opening i knew i wouldn't get hired for
• that did not stop me from getting sad
• aquired the entirety of a song of ice and fire in english in an used bookstore because it was very cheap
• now i have to read it all.
• suffered wanting to buy tickets for an Oingo Boingo Former Members(tm) concert but didn't because i can't afford it
• for some reason i'm using tumblr a lot more frequently again
• managed to fall in love with yakuza 0 - still haven't finished it

input

books/texts

• read mistborn by brandon sanderson
• read alongside friends!
• reading notes from the underground by dostoyevsky
• it's bookbug's book for april, and i've been wanting to read it for a long time, ever since i got a copy as a gift from a dear friend. i am not enjoying it
• reading a game of thrones by george r r martin
• much better than i expected

movies

• duna part two
• third time watching this i'm done (still like it)
• mad max fury road
• thought it was good but thought i should have enjoyed it more
• RRR
• best afternoon tv movie ever made
• civil war
• did i enjoy it solely because i watched it in a movie theater while chomping through a huge popcorn bucket and staring at wagner moura's face on the big screen? maybe. but i thought it was very fun. i'm scared to look at it too closely and see it fall apart
• swing girls
• went in expecting a mildly fun movie but it surprised me a lot. it's the most positive and happy movie i've ever seen maybe, but in a very natural way?
• nana
• i had already started watching the anime but never finished it. was surprised when i found out the movie is older than the anime! it seems like a very good adaptation to me, the story is great, but i have issues with movies that don't work by themselves (the story clearly does not end in the film's ending and if there wasn't a second movie it wouldn't make much sense. i don't like this)
• cruising
• leather daddy al pacino. that's all i have to say
• zero day
• true crime documentary but fake. i liked it
• submarine
• was aggressively disappointed by this one
• batman
• robert pattinson's one! had already watched it before. really love it
• nana 2
• Takumi Did Nothing Wrong

tv shows

• completly consumed by the walking dead
• Grimes Family FanClub Official
• continued watching dungeon meshi
• love watching weekly anime
• watched a bit of it's always sunny in philadelphia
• indescribable feelings for charlie kelly

games

• back to playing yakuza 0
• i really love majima.......... my wanting to play all of the games in this series is back with full force
• played a bit of animal crossing new horizons
• but want to play it more often since my partner is playing it and it's a fun game to play when you have a friend to share things with
• played a bit of ffxiv
• the yokai watch event is punishing me severly

output

this playlist which i have not finished creating

i'm also writing fanfiction again, which i had not done for at least five years. for obvious reasons i am not posting it here

not going to post the drawings and animations for this month here as well for different reasons. i've created some stuff. not too much. use your imagination